What's that say about me?

Random (sometimes) entertaining prattle from the mind of a rather ordinary girl with extraordinary powers.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

A letter to you.

I do not feel the same way about you that she does. I do not care about your bad childhood, your disastrous relationships, your medications, your shrinks, your money problems or your aggression. I only care about how those things impact her. I have no love for you. No softness, no emotions. This says a lot, because I have emotion for everyone. My well of giving goes deep, but you've crossed the line. She keeps going back to you. She thinks the two of you are supposed to be together. She thinks she should be taking care of you. You are a disease. You're toxic. You're not worth her time. I cannot and will not sit by and watch you dry her up. I can't be a quiet member in the crowd while you take everything she has to give. For now, I hope that she'll come to her senses. I pray that she'll realize she's better off without you. What I want more than anything right now is to not see you again, and to have her forget you existed. I can't say this to you because I promised to butt out and let her, as an adult, make her own decisions- but know this: She's making the wrong one. You might be able to trick her into doing what you want for now. You might be able to convince her you've changes when everyone else knows you haven't. You might have the ability to brainwash her and make her turn against the people who love her the most and have supported her. You made her choose you over everyone else, and that hurts. We're all hurt by that. But it's nothing compared to the hurt you will feel if you put one fucking toe out of line again. I swear on my life that I will beat the shit out of you if I ever get the opportunity. The fact that you told her that you wish she would go to hell and die; You threatened to call the police on my family. You blackmailed them for property that didn't belong to you. You told my sister that the reason my Father left was her. You literally broke into our house. You stalked her. You came where you weren't wanted. You called her so many times that she had to change her fucking phone number. You manipulated someone else into taking her to see you when you KNEW she didn't want to see you. You blew it. You're a selfish, ridiculous, problematic, manipulative bitch. It's all unforgivable. I will not apologize for what I'm saying. I have to say it somewhere, and this is it. This is how angry I am. This is how much I hate you and wish you would vanish. This is my letter to you.
I mean every word of it.

1 Comments:

At 6:06 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow Jamie, that is deep. I feel your pain. I have seen the same situation in my friends, not my sister but I have seen it. I have also been in a bad relationship with similar situations. I can't say I understand because it is not my family, however I am here if you ever need to talk.

 

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