Down,Over and Out

I haven't been posting because I don't know what to say. I don't want to whine, but I don't have anything good to post. I don't feel like me. Rather, I feel like a very washed-out, high-strung version of myself. I'm not well. I don't know, it sounds weird to say it, but I guess I'm not. Today work was awful. There's nothing worse than feeling as low as you ever thought you could, yet still having to cheese it up for your District Manager. I'm pretty sure my Store Manager thinks I'm bipolar and suicidal. All I know is that I feel like complete shit. I feel like I'm separating from everyone, even myself. My friends must be at the end of their patience, because - with one exception- they don't want to see me. When I try to talk to people about things, they aren't in the mood. Sometimes I just want to be told that I'm cared about. I want to be told that I'm needed and that I'm not as inconsequential as I feel. I want to stop accidentally making people angry or annoyed. I've been writing a lot lately, but when I go back and read, it just makes me feel worse.I'm finding it very hard to get happy or excited about anything lately. I'm always tired and sad and worried. I just want it all to end.