Cake again! 

Cake! 

Boo! Grace and I made a Halloween cake tonight! Exciting, isn't it? Happy spook day!  

Holy Cow!

This is my 100th post. When I signed up for this blog, I never ever thought I'd stick with it this long. I usually lose interest in journals and stuff. I guess I'm a narcissist, I only feel the need to write when I know someone is reading. Also, I have some amazing friends that bitch to no end when I don't post for awhile (Jaime, Kate) They keep me motivated, even if most of the junk on here is exactly that- junk. Anyway, Happy 100th.

Today's been...Something. I opened at work, raced to a diabetes fund raiser, lost my check card and got sick somewhere in the midst of everything else that's been going on. I feel like hammered crap. I'm at school right now, I just sat through a math class that I didn't understand and received a pre-test with about 20 questions. I know how to complete 5 of them. I'm going to have to re-learn 4 chapters of math before November 2nd. Yay. On the bright side, the fundraiser was a huge success despite the adversity I had coming at me from my management at the last minute, John is coming to have lunch with me at school in a few minutes and I found out that after Christmas My Mom and sister and I are going to get a dog. Also, I have recently been sent a bunch of websites that accept non-professional author's submissions. (Thanks Jaim) Sooooo, I've ordered a few magazines from them. I'm going to read up on their styles, edit up some of my better pieces and resubmit. Wish me luck.

Rejection and Impending doom

I got my first rejection notice yesterday. It's from freshyarn. It pretty much says that my piece isn't what they are looking for, even though there's some "pretty terriffic writing in it". I know, I know, they send the same letter to everyone- but I'm going to pretend that someone sat down and read my story and said " This has potential!" ...Is that sad? It feels sad, but I'm not really in the right state of mind to differentiate between what is really sad and what I'm making feel that way.
I've been having a really difficult time living in the moment lately. I've been trying to not let things that may or may not happen in the future govern what I do in the present. It's just not easy. It's really hard when I keep reminding myself of how bad things could get. Rejection slips arrive, relationships get rocky and end, people leave. It happens, it all happens everyday. I'm trying to teach myself to look forward to the good moments, but lately I'm cowered waiting for the bad. How can I turn my stumbling blocks into stepping stones?

My return to the digital world

I hate Comp USA. I've never recieved such shitty customer service from anywhere in my entire life. So, after 3 weeks a million phone calls and 3 in-store visits, I'm back. Things are okay. Who missed me? More later.