This stand off;
I will lose buried in the trenches
the only clean skin
washed by streak of cry and sweat
glow softly
the offensive light in my throat
pushing, pushing the air and heart and fluid
please burnout
or burn brighter
evaporate the ocean behind you
my shell is just perfunctory, warm and thin
my organs illuminated and steeped in spices
You are steel.
I hold no shape as water
we're at a stalemate.
unless I'm frozen.

Respite

I want to listen to Jewel. Specifially, my blog's namesake. I miss my Dad. I miss Scott. I miss my grandmas. I have 1/2 a mind to skip work tomorrow and drive to WV alone. I think it would be good for me.

OMG

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Genealogy research - Geneology

Mouse Calibration

I don't usually like these things, but this one was informative.

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MOUSE CALIBRATION

Instructions if your mouse was not recalibrated for the new year.

You should actually do this every year. To re-calibrate your mouse, click and hold on the Y below. Then drag the Y toward the g. If it doesn't work immediately, you might want to clean your mouse.

Y ou dumb ass. You'll believe anything

CLEVER.

oh boy.

Today was kind of weird. I got a phone call from a person at one componant of my job yelling at me for what a second component was doing. Then #3 compnent calls and yells at me because "component #1's" calls should always be handled by him. Yikes. So I got yelled at for getting yelled at. 0% fun. I haven't smoked in over a month, but I wanted a cigarette badly today. I wonder why, all of a sudden I want one. Jsut when it was starting to not bother me when other's smoked. And of course, this weekend is pride so everyone (tekoa included) will be lighting up. Oh dear. Give me strength. In other news, the diet is going well... probably because it's only been 4 days. ;) In any case, I'm going to give this one my all. My new, revised goal is to lose 40 lbs. I think that's not only enough- but also manageble. 60 was quite a stretch.

aannnyyywwwayyy, I'm sitting here waiting for class to being with someone I DO NOT like. So I'm going to get off here and take a walk before she tries to talk to me. Adios.

sooooo, yeah.

14 day mark. Sweet. We're all still alive. I'm having a few (should be minor) issues, but I'm refusing to get too upset about anything until we've been here a month. Hopefully everything will pan out. Hopefully.

Just saw Indiana Jones with Lauren. God, Harrison Ford is still hot. He's still one of the most attractive men (and people) in the world. Whew. Shia (Shya?) Lebeouf is no Indi. But we'll see... in anycase, very good movie. I enjoyed it immensely.

boring post today, sorry.

Runts and Roommates

So, we've been in the house for 10 days. Things are going pretty well, I think. We're just ironing out the details and trying to get used to living together. I completely freaked out around day 4- and have routinely felt sad and guilty and lonely for at least a few minutes everyday- but it's getting better. Since Kevin moved in I've seen him 0 times and spoken to him per phone once to ask him to defrost some ground beef. He assures me, though, that he will be around at least one night in the next few days. It's odd to live with someone you barel barely know- but hopefully we'll remedy that soon. Ginger and Murray seem to be doing okay. Ginger is eating more but is skinnier than ever,probably from chasing and being chased by Murray all day. I haven't smoked a cigarette in over 3 weeks. I'm 3 classes into my 12 classes of pre interpreting skills and so far I'm really enjoying it.

Now, onto more important things! RUNTS candy got rid of Lime and added Pineapple? WTF??? Yellow has one purpose in the RUNTS world and that is for the long, phallic life of bananna!

lame.

New Places

We're in the new place. We moved in Saturday. It's really beautiful- shockingly it came together really well and it looks pretty good for 4 broke 20-somethings and 2 dogs. It's a big adjustment, though. One I wasn't ready for, as much as I thought I was. It's pretty crazy. I feel like I can't get a grip on myself. My mind is always wandering, I'm over thinking everything and I'm not sure why. I really believe it's just so much change at once... and I wonder how long it will be before I'm feeling like myself again ;Before I can relax and enjoy this huge step I've just taken, this 'freedom' I've given myself. I feel so weird. :(
I'll write again soon.