text message conversation

me: RIP my favorite Pen
John: Mine passed last week. He was red.
Me: Purple and sorely missed.

Are you fucking kidding me?

have you ever had a toothache? Isn't it miserable? Yeah, well read on.

This story literally reduced me to tears just now. What the hell is wrong with our government?
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/17372104/

blahdays and birthdays

Soooo.... right. I'm feeling a little down today. (It's Grace's birthday- yay!)

I haven't felt well for the past few days. A few things in my personal life are making me very worried about being left behind. It's a weird concept, right? the idea of being left behind. Because in reality, you can't be left behind because your life is yours. So I guess that I'm worried that the people I have chosen to surround myself with are growing up faster than me, and moving on. I'm worried that my completely fucked-up family life is holding me back, but I guess that really the only thing that hold me back is me, right? Notice how I blog like I just want answers from the void.

Blah. I want nothing more than to move on and start my own life. So my question is this- when is it okay to break ties and leave a place where you might be needed for the sake of your own mental health and life? When is it okay to say "Okay, now is for me and it's long overdue."?
When am I going to take ownership of what I want for myself?

My gas station experience

Gas station: enter Jamie, feeling sick and looking even worse.

Jamie to attendant: Hi, can I please have a pack of marlboro mediums?
attendant :Sure. $3.70.
Jamie tries to hand attendant credit card, despite the fact that there is a slide machine directly in fron of her.
att: You always do that. You should just leave me your card and I'll keep it so when you come in I'll just ring you up right away.
Jamie laughs
att: you should also leave your phone number
Jamie laughs again and runs card through machine
att: going to work?
Jamie: no, I've been there since 7. I'm on break.
att: Where do you work?
Jamie: Toyota, right up the street.
att: What do you do, honey?
Jamie: Repo department. (sarcastically) So I'm everyone's favorite person, you know how that goes.
att:well, you're mine.
Jamie laughs, picks up cigarettes and leaves.
End scene.

Sooooo, eventhough he's a creepy boy and made me a little uncomfortble, it was nice to get a confidence boost on a day when I'm feeling super super super gross- and to not be hit on in a overly sexual way. What is it about compliments from complete strangers that totally validate you for a few minutes? I got in my car and thought "I'm so cute right now". Although I don't know what to do when I go in there later this week and he actually wants my number.

Anyway, Just wanted to share.

I'm baaaccckkk

So I'm going to post more, now that I have the internet and a working computer at my home once again. I need to write more. It makes me feel good!

For now, though, Damian- my freaking hero- is providing me with AIM tech support to un-shit my computer. Buddah bless you Damian. You're a wizard!

PS- The virus scan is only 1/2 done and I have 75 trojans. no shit.

Anyway! Back to fixing the comp. Look for more posts coming to a theatre near you!